Becoming Silas' Mom

Well, I have been inspired by one of my friends to just sit down and write. To sum up my past years prior to becoming a Swanson, I will just simple say it was a roller coaster that God used to form the women that I have become today. Anyone who is reading this knows enough about my story to know that my past had been pretty traumatic for numerous reasons. God has definitely fulfilled His promise in Romans 8:28 on my journey "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose."




Before Tim and I were married God was working in my heart and life in big ways and preparing me for him. Preparing me to be the wife that he deserves. God carried me through Caroleen's passing and what the girls and I endured with that and other very difficult things. God held me in His arms, kept me sober, provided me with the means to buy a home on my own with 2 kids and taught me about His sovereignty. There's the super condensed version that brings me to how God has been shaping me since I became a Swanson. Marriage to Tim suits me well and has strengthened me and my walk. God has also used it to make me a better me. "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." Ecclesiastes 4:12




I have been actually able to feel emotionally safe enough to grieve the loss of Caroleen during my pregnancy and becoming a better mom to my girls in the process of healing many wounds. Some of which date all the way back to childhood. Once again super condensed version of some huge events. All of this to say that I believe that not only has God gifted me with His awesome presence every second, given me an amazing husband, and made me a better me, He has also been preparing me for this new chapter in my life. He has been preparing me to be Silas' mom and be the mom that Silas deserves.