Intentional Year

The subject of being intentional came up strongly after Tim and I attended a marriage conference last year. Slowly God has been bringing that word up in more and more areas of my life. Being intentional in parenting, housekeeping, my marriage, interactions with everyone I come in contact with, ect. Then came the first of the year and Tim and I decided to pick one word to focus on to start making changes this year. Doing the footwork for whatever God has for us. We both decided together that intentional is our word this year. We're sharing, we're good sharers...sometimes. Anyways there it is. One thing I'm going to be intentional about is blogging about that journey. Here's the beginning of that. 

(almost a year later.....epic fail. lol)

Random post during pregoness

At around 32 weeks pregnant I realized that all 3 of my girls had come before my 37th week of pregnancy. I was so excited about what I thought was the possibility of meeting my son sooner and not being pregnant for much longer. Well, that excitement turned into ridiculous inpatients at my 35th week. I was frustrated and at 36 weeks decided that it was time to take matters into my hands and start doing some natural induction techniques that I had read online to speed things up.....Well, here I am 38 weeks PREGNANT. Just a couple days ago God gave me the gift of peace and acceptance in this situation

Here we go

Well Tim and I have been married for 6 months now. At the end of this month will be 1 year that we've known eachother. Wow! Crazy, sometimes I can't believe it's only been a year. Alura and Scarlett have adjusted to the new path that God has put us on very well. Scarlet is lovin havin a daddy! (Tim is an amazing dad!) I think Alura deep down is lovin it too. But bein 13 is a time where, well we all know how 13 is. Scarlett is officially a Swanson! She is still learning to spell it. She practices it every day. She is homeschooling this year with the Abeka curriculum. We love it so far. Alura is at an art school that she loves. All in all life is awesome! I feel blessed to have Tim as my husband. ADD once again has gotten the best of me. I have lost focus on writing this blog.

Becoming Silas' Mom

Well, I have been inspired by one of my friends to just sit down and write. To sum up my past years prior to becoming a Swanson, I will just simple say it was a roller coaster that God used to form the women that I have become today. Anyone who is reading this knows enough about my story to know that my past had been pretty traumatic for numerous reasons. God has definitely fulfilled His promise in Romans 8:28 on my journey "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose."




Before Tim and I were married God was working in my heart and life in big ways and preparing me for him. Preparing me to be the wife that he deserves. God carried me through Caroleen's passing and what the girls and I endured with that and other very difficult things. God held me in His arms, kept me sober, provided me with the means to buy a home on my own with 2 kids and taught me about His sovereignty. There's the super condensed version that brings me to how God has been shaping me since I became a Swanson. Marriage to Tim suits me well and has strengthened me and my walk. God has also used it to make me a better me. "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." Ecclesiastes 4:12




I have been actually able to feel emotionally safe enough to grieve the loss of Caroleen during my pregnancy and becoming a better mom to my girls in the process of healing many wounds. Some of which date all the way back to childhood. Once again super condensed version of some huge events. All of this to say that I believe that not only has God gifted me with His awesome presence every second, given me an amazing husband, and made me a better me, He has also been preparing me for this new chapter in my life. He has been preparing me to be Silas' mom and be the mom that Silas deserves.